The Skokie Swift, derided as the Tooterville Trolley, pulls into Howard Street in Chicago where I transferred to the L for my expedition to an exotic party. |
Note:
This August marks the 50th anniversary
of the Democratic National Convention in Chicago, the street demonstrations that
occurred, and the violent repression of the Chicago Police Department and
Illinois National Guard. I am resurrecting
my series of personal memoirs of that summer and my small role in them. They were first serialized over several
months in the Third City Blog and reposted here in 2011. Because they were
scattered so widely a lot of people had trouble following the whole narrative,
I posted them serially in 2013and again in 2016. Each time they have undergone some editing to
correct faulty memories and correctly identify some of the people I encountered. But
they are still memories, and as such not totally reliable history. Today’s first post is sort of a prelude to
what will come later.
It was the summer of 1968. I was back at the folks’ house in Skokie—for
the last time—after my first year at Shimer College and working on the assembly
line at Koldwave/Heat Exchangers, an air conditioning plant. It was a time between times, a time of
waiting for that thing that would change—I was sure of it—everything. That “thing” was the Democratic National Convention in August and the massive street
protests that we all knew were coming.
One warm evening I took the Skokie
Swift and the L down into the City for a party.
It was my first Chicago party.
People my own age with an apartment of their own in the gritty,
mysterious city! Eileen Claire was quite
beautiful and brilliant. She played
cello and read French. We had gone to
different Niles Township Highs Schools—she to East and I to West. We met in LYNT (Liberal Youth of Niles
Township) and worked together on a program about the draft, Uptight About the Draft? which was inscribed
on the flyer in San Francisco psychedelic lettering. She pushed the rest of us to be more
militant.
Now she had the second floor of a
three flat on Bissell Street, not far from the Armitage El. The building backed up against the
tracks. Trains roared by at eye level
to the back porch. Ramshackle furniture
was scattered around. Posters—Janis
Joplin’s peek-a-boo breast and demonstration calls—were tacked to the grimy
walls. There was a hole in the wall in
the bathroom and the toilet rocked when you sat on it. Beautiful. Bohemian. Dangerous.
The apartment was jammed when I got there. Eileen waved at me from across a room, smoking intently and engaged in an animated conversation with a knot of earnest young men. She pointed to a keg in galvanized tub in the kitchen. I think that was as close to communication with me as she got all evening.
I couldn’t blame her. Compared to
the sophisticates here, I was sure that I must be something of an embarrassing
relic from the past, someone casually invited pro-forma without any expectation
that he would actually show up.
My appearance was a combination of
naiveté, nerdiness, and an ardent yearning for bohemia. Black Wellington boots. Western cut jeans from Monkey Wards where I
still shopped for huskies A frayed
white short sleeve dress shirt—my uncle had given me a drawer full of them—past
prime salesman crispness, pocket stuffed with pens and an address book stuffed
with scrap notes of lofty ideas. A red
bandana knotted to the side of the throat.
The first bloom of an orange goatee, sideburns down to the jaw
line. Hair full behind the ears and just
a tad over the collar hoping for Byronic heroism. Thick horn rim glasses fit for a middle aged
accountant from Queens. All topped off
by a dingy white Open Road Stetson, front brim snapped down, sides curled. A
symphony in incongruity.
The crowd skewed slightly older than
I—college juniors and seniors, a smattering of graduate students, even a
sprinkling of hip young junior
professors, the kind who mixed high minded idealism with sleeping with adoring
students. Some had dropped out and were
now organizing the masses. The men could
be recognized by their uniform—blue chambray work shirts, sleeves rolled up
just below the elbow, jeans, and engineer boots, sometimes a Greek fisherman’s
or newsboy cap. The girls wore peasant blouses or loose t-shirts, full skirts
with bare legs or jeans, hair long or loosely tied behind the ears, scrubbed faces
defiant of make-up.
This was not a crowd of hippies or
flower children. Even amid the flowing
alcohol and passed joints there was an air of seriousness, of conspiracy, of
danger. Eileens’s friends were self-described militants, SDS, and Communists. Some of them I would latter come to recognize
as movement heavies. Eileen herself, in
just a couple of years, would ascend to
leadership in a Maoist sect which would briefly hold the official American
China franchise, and help litter radical America with vinyl covered Quotations from Chairman Mao, blue People’s
Army caps with red stars, and garish red and gold Mao buttons.
That night was the first time I heard the word revolution bandied about as if it were the most natural thing in the world, not something to do with Redcoats and embattled farmers in tri-corn hats, not something that erupted in exotic foreign places like St. Petersburg, but something that we were going to do right here, right now, next week at the latest.
I was telling folks that summer that
I was a socialist. But then I would
expound on my firm belief that what American needed was a Fabian Movement of
intellectuals that could make socialism respectable to the middle classes. Mention of this theory in these circles drew
only eye rolling, dismissive snorts and long, jargon filled lectures on
abandoning bourgeois sentimentality, casting my lot with the proletariat, and
recognizing the central role of the vanguard party in creating a real
revolution. Evidently they were less
impressed by George Bernard Shaw than by Vladimir Ilyich Lenin.
When they learned that I actually,
if only temporarily, worked in a real factory, something that very few, if any,
of them had ever actually done, I was sort of patted on the head with an
expectation that I would learn about exploitation. A couple of them asked if I would take red
bannered newspapers to work with me and pass them out to my comrades. I didn’t think that anything with a huge
hammer and cycle on it was apt appeal to the hillbillies, Poles, Mexicans and Blacks
who sweltered with me on the air conditioning assembly line.
Under the circumstances, I soon drew
apart. I drank scotch, which I believed
was the official beverage of the aspiring young writer, and caught a hit on
whatever joints might come my way. And I
watched.
I was sitting on a sagging couch,
squeezed among strangers acutely into my buzz when a large man with a bushy,
bright red beard pulled up a milk crate in front of us and fished a crinkled
clipping from his pocket. “Here,” he
said thrusting it at a girl sitting on an arm of the sofa, “Can anyone tell me
who this is?”
When it was passed down to me, I saw
a clipping on glossy paper, the photo image sharp. Probably from a newsmagazine. In it a portly middle-aged man in a three
piece suit with a receding mop of mildly unruly hair gestured emphatically with
one hand and clutching a large mug with the other. The photo was taken from a low angle, looking
up at a platform or stage.
We all studied the picture for a
moment, trying to focus our un-focused brains.
A couple of folks thought it might be Alan Ginsberg. But he had no beard and no one could imagine
Ginsberg in a suit. One, sensing an air
of menace in the man’s scowling expression, was sure it was a Republican
Senator. But in the end, we had to give
up.
Red Beard waited a moment. “It’s Norman Mailer! With the famous cup of bourbon the night
before the March on the Pentagon!”
Mailer, I was informed, had taken to
the stage and launched into a long, incoherent rant. The next day he was busted on the march and
spent an un-Thoreau like night in jail.
All of this had happened the previous October while I was getting used
to being stoned every night at Shimer.
It was news to me.
But I did know Mailer. Who didn’t. He was one of a handful of
American writers who were more famous than their books at a time when serious
writers had some of the same air of celebrity about them as movie stars. In fact these writers seemed to move in the
same orbits as movie stars. Hadn’t Arthur
Miller married Marilyn Monroe? And
didn’t Truman Capote, Gore Vidal, and George Plimpton breezily pop up on Johnny
Carson’s couch? And Mailer was bigger
than any of them, the most famous American writer since Hemmingway and just as
pugnacious.
So I was impressed that Mailer,
drunk or not, had thrown his lot in with war protestors and radicals. I had been vaguely aware that the writer was
anti-establishment. His journalism
appeared not only in glossy mainstream magazines but in hipper journals. Like a lot of folks my age, I had read Why are We in Vietnam? and was a bit
perplexed by the connection of a Texas adolescent’s Alaska hunting trip to the
title. I gathered it was an allegory.
But mostly I knew Mailer from my
mother’s wide collection of best sellers, mostly in paperback editions. She prided herself on keeping up with good
books. And in the days when the best
seller lists often were dominated by many of the authors destined for admission
to the pantheon great American literature, those old, dog eared Pocket Books
and Cardinal Editions provided me with a deeper and better education than I
ever received in high school English. F.
Scott Fitzgerald, Sinclair Lewis, Edna Ferber, Pearl S. Buck (these older
writers in cheap book club hard cover editions), Hemmingway, Steinbeck, Robert
Penn Warren, Faulkner, James Jones.
My father’s books were another thing
entirely. Slender pulp genre shoot ‘em
ups, heavy on westerns, hard boiled detectives, and war stories.
But The Naked and the Dead may have been one of the few books both of
my folks may have read. It was serious
literature and a rip-snorting yarn, even if it did take more than one night to
read.
Of course, I read it, too. It was one of the books that changed my
impression of war from the brutal glory of the old John Wayne movies I saw on
TV, to something more personal and ambivalent.
Without The Naked and the Dead,
and a handful of other books I might have been swept along by enthusiasm for a
good ol’ martial crusade in Vietnam. Certainly
my earliest impulses had been in that direction. But these dusty old paperbacks readied me to
view things differently.
That early Mailer, not the current
radical, had primed my pump.
Tommorow—The run up to the big event.
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