Note: This week
marks the 44th anniversary of the Democratic Convention in Chicago
and all of the events surrounding it.
Last year in a series of posts that first appeared in The Third City blog and were re-posted
here, I shared my memoirs of those events.
This year over the next several days I am going to re-post the entire
series in daily installments. Originally
they ran over five months and a lot of folks never saw them all. Today we begin with a trip into the city for
a party about a month before the Convention.
It was the summer of 1968.
I was back at the folks’ house in Skokie—for
the last time—after my first year at Shimer
College and working on the assembly line at air conditioning plant. It was a time between times, a time of
waiting for that thing that would change—I was sure of it—everything. That “thing” was the Democratic National Convention
in August and the massive street protests that we all knew were coming.
One warm evening I took the Skokie Swift and the El
down into the City for a party. It was
my first Chicago party. People my own age with an apartment of their
own in the gritty, mysterious city!
Claire was quite beautiful and brilliant. She played cello and read French. We had gone to different Niles Township Highs Schools.
We met in LYNT (Liberal Youth of
Niles Township) and worked together on a program about the draft—Uptight
About the Draft? inscribed on the flyer in San Francisco psychedelic lettering. She pushed the rest of us to be more militant.
Now she had the second floor of a two flat on Bissell Street, not far from the Fullerton El. The building backed up against the tracks. Trains roared by at eye level to the back
porch. Ramshackle furniture was
scattered around. Posters—Janis Joplin’s peek-a-boo breast and
demonstration calls—were tacked to the grimy walls. There was a hole in the wall in the bathroom
and the toilet rocked when you sat on it.
Beautiful. Bohemian. Dangerous.
The apartment was jammed when I got there. Claire waved at me from across a room,
smoking intently and engaged in an animated conversation with a knot of earnest
young men. She pointed to a keg in galvanized tub in the kitchen. I think that was as close to communication
with me as she got all evening.
I couldn’t blame her. Compared to the sophisticates here, I
was sure that I must be something of an embarrassing relic from the past, someone
casually invited pro-forma without any expectation that he would actually show
up.
My appearance was a combination of naiveté, nerdiness, and
an ardent yearning for bohemia. Black Wellington boots. Western cut jeans from Monkey Wards where I still shopped for huskies A frayed white short sleeve dress shirt—my
uncle had given me a drawer full of them—past prime salesman crispness, pocket
stuffed with pens and an address book stuffed with scrap notes of lofty ideas. A red bandana knotted to the side of the
throat. The first bloom of an orange
goatee, sideburns down to the jaw line.
Hair full behind the ears and just a tad over the collar hoping for Byronic heroism. Thick horn rim glasses fit for a middle aged
accountant from Queens. All topped off by a dingy white Open Road Stetson, front brim snapped down, sides curled. A symphony in
incongruity.
The crowd skewed slightly older than I—college juniors and
seniors, a smattering of graduate students, even a sprinkling of hip young junior professors, the kind who
mixed high minded idealism with sleeping with adoring students. Some had dropped out and were now organizing
the masses. The men could be recognized
by their uniform—blue chambray work shirts, sleeves rolled up just below the
elbow, jeans, and engineer boots, sometimes a Greek fisherman’s or newsboy cap.
The girls wore peasant blouses or loose t-shirts, full skirts with bare legs or
jeans, hair long or loosely tied behind the ears, scrubbed faces defiant of
make-up.
This was not a crowd of hippies or flower children. Even amid the flowing alcohol and passed
joints there was an air of seriousness, of conspiracy, of danger. Clair’s
friends were self described militants, SDS,
and Communists. Some of them, I would latter come to
recognize as movement heavies. Claire
herself, in just a couple of years, would ascend to leadership in a Maoist sect which would briefly hold the official American China franchise, and help litter
radical America with vinyl covered Quotations from Chairman Mao, blue People’s Army caps with red stars, and garish red and gold Mao
buttons.
That night was the first time I heard the word revolution
bandied about as if it were the most natural thing in the world, not something
to do with Redcoats and embattled farmers in tri-corn hats, not something that
erupted in exotic foreign places like St. Petersburg, but something that we
were going to do right here, right now, next week at the latest.
I was telling folks that summer that I was a socialist. But then I would expound on my firm belief
that what American needed was a Fabian
Movement of intellectuals that could make socialism respectable to the
middle classes. Mention of this theory
in these circles drew only eye rolling, dismissive snorts and long, jargon
filled lectures on abandoning bourgeois sentimentality, casting my lot with the
proletariat, and recognizing the central role of the vanguard party in creating
a real revolution. Evidently they were
less impressed by George Bernard Shaw
than by Vladimir Ilyich Lenin.
When they learned that I actually, if only temporarily,
worked in a real factory, something that very few, if any, of them had ever
done, I was sort of patted on the head with an expectation that I would learn
about exploitation. A couple of them
asked if I would take red bannered newspapers to work with me and pass them out
to my comrades. I didn’t think that
anything with a huge hammer and cycle on it was apt appeal to the hillbillies,
Poles, Mexicans and Blacks who sweltered with me on the air conditioning
assembly line.
Under the circumstances, I soon drew apart. I drank scotch, which I believed was the
official beverage of the aspiring young writer, and caught a hit on whatever
joints might come my way. And I watched.
I was sitting on a sagging couch, squeezed among strangers
acutely into my buzz when a large man with a bushy, bright red beard pulled up
a milk crate in front of us and fished a crinkled clipping from his
pocket. “Here,” he said thrusting it a
girl sitting on an arm of the sofa, “Can anyone tell me who this is?”
When it was passed down to me, I saw a clipping on glossy
paper, the photo image sharp. Probably
from a newsmagazine. In it a portly
middle age man in a three piece suit with a receding mop of mildly unruly hair
gestured emphatically with one hand and clutching a large mug with the
other. The photo was taken from a low
angle, looking up at a platform or stage.
We all studied the picture for a moment, trying to focus our
un-focused brains. A couple of folks
thought it might be Alan Ginsberg. But he had no beard and no one could imagine
Ginsberg in a suit. One, sensing an air
of menace in the man’s scowling expression, was sure it was a Republican
Senator. But in the end, we had to give
up.
Red Beard waited a moment.
“It’s Norman Mailer! With the famous cup of bourbon the night
before the March on the Pentagon!”
Mailer, I was informed, had taken to the stage and launched
into a long, incoherent rant. The next
day he was busted on the march and spent an un-Thoreau like night in jail.
All of this had happened the previous October while I was getting used
to being stoned every night at Shimer.
It was news to me.
But I did know Mailer.
Who didn’t. He was one of a handful of American writers who were more
famous than their books at a time when serious writers had some of the same air
of celebrity about them as movie stars.
In fact these writers seemed to move in the same orbits as movie
stars. Hadn’t Arthur Miller married Marilyn
Monroe? And didn’t Truman Capote, Gore Vidal, and George
Plimpton breezily pop up on Johnny
Carson’s couch? And Mailer was
bigger than any of them, the most famous American writer since Hemmingway and just as pugnacious.
So I was impressed that Mailer, drunk or not, had thrown his
lot in with war protestors and radicals.
I had been vaguely aware that the writer was anti-establishment. His journalism appeared not only in glossy mainstream
magazines but in hipper journals. Like a
lot of folks my age, I had read Why are We in Vietnam? and was a bit
perplexed by the connection of a Texas adolescent’s Alaska hunting trip to the
title. I gathered it was an allegory.
But mostly I knew Mailer from my mother’s wide collection of
best sellers in paperback editions. She
prided herself on keeping up with good books. And in the days when the best seller lists
often were dominated by many of the authors destined for admission to the
pantheon great American literature, those old, dog eared Pocket Books and Cardinal
Editions provided me with a deeper and better education than I ever
received in high school English. F. Scott Fitzgerald, Sinclair Lewis, Edna
Ferber, Pearl S. Buck (these older writers in cheap book club hard cover
editions), Hemmingway, Steinbeck, Robert
Penn Warren, Faulkner, James Jones.
My father’s books were another thing entirely. Slender pulp genre shoot ‘em ups, heavy on
westerns, hard boiled detectives, and war stories.
But The Naked and the Dead may have been
one of the few books both of my folks may have read. It was serious literature and a rip-snorting
yarn, even if it did take more than one night to read.
Of course, I read it, too.
It was one of the books that changed my impression of war from the
brutal glory of the old John Wayne
movies I saw on TV, to something more personal and ambivalent. Without The
Naked and the Dead, and a handful of other books I might have been swept
along by martial enthusiasm for a good ol’ martial crusade in Vietnam. Certainly my earliest impulses had been in
that direction. But these dusty old
paperbacks readied me to view things differently.
That early Mailer, not the current radical, had primed my
pump.
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