I
was preparing a final post for National Poetry Month when I rediscovered
this ultimate post from 2000. The Coronavirus
was new, the whole nation was hunkered down. We had no idea that would still be going on
or that we would be so weary and jaded by the whole thing and we pretend
it is over. And we were still reeling
from the aftermath of attempted coup d’etat and Siege
of the Capitol. We were beginning
to adjust to the possibility of actual civil war. Two years later scores of miscreants have
gone to jail, mostly pathetic small fry while the powerful
sponsors of treason remain uncharged and sit in Congress and
in governor’s mansions. Back then
multiple folks shared this stunning poetic rant on Facebook and other social media. It is raw with rage and grief, but it dared to speak to what
many of us were feeling during the pandemic cum charnel
house as yahoos, cult zombies, and
outright fascists paraded around egged on by the White House and bankrolled by
deep dark pockets demanding
their rights to spit in the face of the rest of us, kill us and our loved ones.
It
seems as relevant today as when it erupted from C.S.E. Cooney
who lives and writes in Queens, New York City, whose borders
are water. According to her web site she is an audiobook narrator,
the appears as the singer/songwriter Brimstone Rhine, and is the author
of Desdemona and the Deep and the World Fantasy Award-winning
Bone Swans: Stories. Her work
includes three albums: Alecto! Alecto!, The Headless
Bride, and Corbeau Blanc, Corbeau Noir, and a poetry
collection, How to Flirt in Faerieland and Other Wild Rhymes.
The latter features her 2011 Rhysling Award-winning The Sea King’s
Second Bride.
Note—this
is not for the prissy, the weak of heart, or any knee jerk on-the-other-hand types.
Content
Warning
if that is freedom, fuck it
i don’t want it
to walk bare as a genital wart in the mayo clinic
swollen with liberty, flying the colors of the flag
fuck it, fuck your freedoms
give me plexiglass prisons, given me wardens in hazmat
give me solitary confinement
give me an oubliette
so I can forget
you and your fanfaronade freedoms
to hold my dying elder’s hand in hospice
that is freedom
you, your ilk, you kick it to dust
you kick it to dust with your leather shoes
to meet at feast together, eat together
marry on the day we choose
let our doctors see their children again
such freedom
you crush with as much disgust as the snake
beneath your heel
my venom grows
every night, every morning
chokevine murderthoughts
thorn and strangle me:
the freedom to be kind, to forgive
to live and let live
all flayed away
I am a criminal in my own mind
I deserve my chains
I don’t know what you deserve
(to do time for war crimes is what you deserve)
I don’t know what you think you deserve
but you take it anyway
no matter what it takes away from
all the rest of us
my friend, swaddled like a sarcophagus in the morgue
for one last look at her sister’s face
my friend, in her lonely hotel room, decontaminating
her scrubs
while she Skypes with her cat
my friend, who stares out the window as Washington
Heights
bangs its pots and pans
so tired, too tired to join the humble éclat, tired
from doing nothing, from staying inside, keeping the
city safe
you spit in the face of my friends
you spit in the face of my friends
you little shit
you little shit
—C.S.E. Cooney